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12 May 2008 @ 07:24 pm

Weird?

Okay, this is the most random thing EVER, but there you are.

I happened to mention to someone today that I like to dip my popcorn in soda and then eat it (pepsi is favorite). They immediately were like, "EW! That's disgusting! Why would you TELL people that?"

So here I am, telling people that. Just thought I'd share a weird fact.

Oh, and I got called a slut twice in the past three days, and got made fun of for being a virgin just as often. Once by Jen's sister's boyfriend (he called me a dyke who sleeps around, actually) and once by a kid in my brother's class. He's in fifth grade. Brother: my sister is so stupid! Kid: And a slut! Brother: No, she's a virgin! Kid: LOLOLOL. (*facepalm* Thank you, Franklin. Way to stick up for me.) And the other virgin hilarity was from Jen's cousin Brandi. Brandi: (to me) Do you smoke? Jen: only sometimes, and she's never even had sex, dude! Brandi&Jen: LOLOLOL!

What up with picking on Amber recently?

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03 May 2008 @ 09:17 pm

Entry of randomness

So...I don't have much to say today. But I am bored, which always leads to fun. Yeah, not really.

I still have writer's block. I finished a 4000+ word D&J fic last week, started the Full House fic for goddessinsepia--and now nothing. I can't think of more than a sentence or two for any D&J fic, and I'm procrastinating on the Full House fic because the het pr0n is giving me issues.

I went with Jen to get a tattoo yesterday (she got one, not me). Okay, I get that she's a taurus and all (but so NOT loyal like they're supposed to be) but why oh why get a bull? It's the weirdest tattoo for a girl, ever. If any of you out there are Tauruses and have little bull tattoos, I'm sorry, but...I hate it.

She didn't even flinch at the tattoo, which makes me think that maybe it wouldn't be so bad to get one myself--but then I realized that I think she has a high threshold for pain. Plus, my grandmother would shoot me. I'd get a butterfly or a star though. No horned animals for me, thanks.

Um...oh yes, I am officially a Saint Mike's student now. Yay for catholic school. But they have a gay issues club, so hopefully I can be somewhat out. We'll see.

That was a pointless update about my RL. SP out.

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30 April 2008 @ 08:15 pm

Oh yeah, and clearly I forgot to mention it, but...

I got back with Jen.

I know. I definitely put that off...

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30 April 2008 @ 08:07 pm

meme of lasts

from

goddessinsepia (I'm working on that Full House, I promise! The pr0n is hard.)

1. Last cigarette?
When it comes to smoking, I don't but I have. Jen smokes, and she always offers me drags. And I can't say no to that girl. So...last Friday. (I think I'm getting addicted, unfortunately)

2. Last beverage?
Pepsi

3. Last phone call?
My grammy

4. Last text message?
From Jen, saying "thx i luv u so much!!" I told her I'd give her a ride. That's the only reason for the "i luv u"

5. Last CD played?
A Drake Bell CD I made--both of his albums (Telegraph and It's Only Time) burned onto one disk.

6. Last BUBBLE bath?
Oh god, not since I was about 8. I had a regular bath a few months ago...

7. Last time you cried?
Yesterday

8. Last meal?
An italian grinder

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26 April 2008 @ 10:57 pm

ORIGINAL FICTION: Choices

So, yeah, I've never posted anything original before, cept for poetry. But I wrote this short story for a class awhile ago, and I figured, well, it's gathering dust (figuratively) on my laptop, so I might as well air it out.

Title: Choices
Author: Amber (that's me)
Summary: Nova has a lot going for her: she has an amazing boyfriend, a supportive best friend, and she’s enjoying a gap year before college. Then everything starts falling down around her: her parents are disappointed she didn’t go to a good college, her boyfriend reveals an uncomfortable secret, and finally her best friend ends up in a coma in the hospital. Nova just can’t take it anymore and goes on a three-day journey. Will the trip be enough to solve her problems? And what about the mysterious stranger she meets on her way? Approx. 8500 words.

( Byeas. )

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26 April 2008 @ 09:15 pm

You know how sometimes you just get wrapped up in your own life and all your own problems, and then you have that "shit. I'm not the only person in the world, and really I'm much better off than some people" realization?

Based on that, you all probably realized that I just had one of those.

I totally did, just a short time ago, tonight actually.

So...yeah. Just, I'm very small, not just on a cosmic scale but a worldly scale, a national scale, even a town-ly scale.

mood:

small

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23 April 2008 @ 08:33 pm

Okay, despite the fact that you all know I'm bisexual, I want your honest opinions about bisexuality. Does it exist? Is it possible to like guys and girls? Is is a choice? Is is a total bullshit made up orientation?

You cannot offend me. My best friend has told me that she thinks I'm choosing to be that way, and I listen to my grandmother say it doesn't exist on a weekly basis. I just want to know. Because it seems like the orientation that appeals to everyone--gay, straight, trans, whatever--to put down.

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19 April 2008 @ 08:43 pm

It's a meme-filled funfest--from otempora01 and absinthe_waltz, respectively

Anonymous Meme: Pick people from your flist and make statements of what you would like to say to them. Don't reveal who they are.

( I don't know if you'll know yourself or not... )

( ABC meme )

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13 April 2008 @ 10:19 pm

I AM AN IDIOT

I posted yesterday about how Jen wants me to get back together with her, right? But I decided not to be an idiot and said no?

Well, at 11.30 last night, I left her a voicemail basically saying that it was going to end badly, but I wanted to get back together too. I have no idea if she's listened to the message yet. I managed to get out of seeing her tonight. Because I don't want to deal with it all again, but I do want a GF. I think I'm using her, and that's bad. At the same time, I DID fall for her so hard last time...I'm just confused.

Hey HP fans of my flist, have you all heard about the lawsuit JKR is bringing against Steve Vander Ark? I can't believe it. I don't want to know what that'll mean for fandom...

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12 April 2008 @ 09:54 pm

Drake&Josh-related spiel

( Actually more Josh's hair related )

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12 April 2008 @ 09:23 pm

Meme type-thing

Taken from

absinthe_waltz

Music Shuffle Survey
- TO TAKE THIS SURVEY, SIMPLY PUT YOUR MUSIC PLAYER ON SHUFFLE AND ANSWER THE QUESTIONS WITH THE TITLE OF THE SONG THAT COMES ON -

( I lust after Girls & Boys )

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12 April 2008 @ 02:49 pm

Happy birthday, Daddy. He would have been 45 today.

I will separate this into 2 different posts later tonight, but for now, I also have to say:

JEN WANTS TO GET BACK TOGETHER. She said (in a note, for chrissake!) that she can’t get me out of her head (Kylie Minogue much?) and that she “truely” loves me.

Now, there is a little part of me that wanted to say yes. But the rest of me, thankfully, wouldn’t let me be that stupid.

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09 April 2008 @ 06:40 pm

I CANNOT WRITE

I have having major pain-in-the-ass writer's block. Yes, I just churned out a 2,000+ word Drake and Josh fic in a night, but I haven't been able to write anything else--original and poetry included--for about two weeks. So here's what I'm proposing:

is there something you've always wanted to read, but couldn't find anything like it? No matter what it is, I'll write it (if, you know, I know the fandom) I'll write something original, some fandom thing, RPS, even explicit het sex if you like. Just ask. Even if it's a random fandom, I might know it. I know a lot of stuff that I don't ever talk about. Like...um...I don't know, Full House. I could totally write a Full House fic if you wanted.

K, that's the end of my begging for writing prompts. Maybe if I get famous someday, I can get commissioned to do stuff like this. That'd be cool.

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05 April 2008 @ 09:50 pm

Two memes

Both taken from

captain_lubey

.

( Dialect meme )

Dear

captain_lubey,
I don't really know how to tell you this, I dislike you.
I think I realized it when I threw up in your camping car and I saw you sit at my father.
I'm sure you're masochistic enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist.
I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory.
You should also know that I never openly mocked a new life as a clone.
Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,

secret_plasures

( How to do it... )

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19 March 2008 @ 07:55 pm

AHHHHH COLLEGE!!!!

I GOT ACCEPTED TO ST MICHAEL'S!!!! NOW I DON'T HAVE TO GO TO UVM!!!!

My grandmother thinks I'll get accepted at 2 of my remaining 4 colleges. Which ones? The two women's colleges, Mt. Holyoke and Smith (they get links if I get accepted. Till then, no pimpage). She thinks I won't be accepted at Middlebury or Dartmouth, because of how many people apply there. Well, so far I'm 2 for 6, with 4 unknowns. We'll see.

In other news, I am about to start the ginormous task of tagging my whole journal. We'll see how that goes.

mood:

excited

music: Lose Yourself, Eminem (only Eminem song I ever liked)

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17 March 2008 @ 08:52 pm

So, it turns out that Jen was cheating on me with that Auri guy for awhile. Did I post about my terrible Valentine's Day? She didn't do anything for me, remember? Well, she got something for HIM. I don't know if I was "the other woman" or if he was "the other man" but however it went, I AM PISSED and she is a BITCH. i only wish I'd known about this when I broke up with her. I would have been so much meaner about it.

My only problem is that I can't make myself dump her as a friend--mostly because I like her family too much. If I ever see Auri though, I am so going to say, "hi, I was Jen's other significant other" or something.

And now, I will not say another word abut Jen. For awhile at least.

So, happy St. Patrick's Day to any of you on my flist who may be Irish, even a little bit (like me!) and I shall ramble on some more about other stuff later. Maybe tomorrow, cause I'm skipping school again.

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16 March 2008 @ 08:42 pm

another meme

I actually hope someone does this one...I have some fics I'd LOVE to write more about. (link goes to my ffn profile)

Comment with any of my fics/drabbles, and I will write you a minimum of 100 words of what happens in that same universe, in the time frame you specify. You can ask for ten years before, five minutes after the last line, three months before the first scene, whatever you like: I will write about it.

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15 March 2008 @ 09:58 pm

a semi-meaningful meme...

Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, thoughts on yaoi, favorite type of underwear, life experiences etc. Repost in your own journal so that we can all learn more about each other.

Only, don't ask me about yaoi, because if you don't already know, you're clearly an idiot. And I won't apologize for that, because, dude, READ MY ICON.

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13 March 2008 @ 07:17 pm

sad RL stuff

my great uncle Henry died today...

my other great uncle, Donald, had a last week stroke and is now in a nursing home...

and my great aunt Irene who has had MS is now in the hospital.

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13 March 2008 @ 03:43 pm

I AM OFFICIALLY SINGLE!!!

Totally self explanatory, huh? It was SOOOO easy, I wish I did it forever ago! Granted, it was so easy as to make me think that she didn't care, but, I don't care.

She'd actually started saying stuff like love ya in text messages and emails, and THAT made me realize she should have been doing it all along...so I got up the pluck and that was that.

She's still one of my best friends, so things like staying the night might be awkward, but I am DONE with her.

Now...I need to find a GOOD boyfriend or girlfriend who is WORTHY of me. Or maybe I'll just stay single for awhile. Whatever comes up.

mood:

ecstatic

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